a not so relaxing tuesday

whew. what a day. i thought this tuesday was going to be very relaxing. no stress. no stress. no stress.... but it turned out to be the opposite. i planned to edit our pics in Lit for just an hour but it took me the whole day. the deadline was before sunset. *ya nice deadline right* but we didnt make it. we passed it through email when light has already gone.
i didnt know how to use the movie maker. lol. thats why i promised my sister Cheenee a cheeseburger so that shed help me out. i was so pressured i almost had a fight with Tin because we were both hot blood-ed. well... atleast Tin finished it. yehey. one problem solved.
now the question is: will sir magmanlac accept it still?

i must learn.

i woke up 8:30 am this morning. i jumped out of bed quite in a hurry because i thought my PMSD class was 10 am. when i was already in bicutan, i texted fiel,
"malelate pa ata ako."
then he replied, "1pm pa class nyo."
waaaaaaaht?! so i wasnt late. i was too early. :((
i decided to stroll around sm bicutan to kill time. some things i did:
* bought pucca's planner and had to choose between black, red and green and finally went for the red one
* bought earrings
* strolled around
* bought hairnet
* checked out their shoes and found nothing cute
* got bored
* ate in mcdo alone and tried scooping the ice cream in my mcfloat with 2 straws
then i left the shopping mecca. i went to school. outside classroom 1, i talked nonstop with my classmates: tin, kez, mae and tata then had PMSD class. nothing special happened.
PE.
i went with tin to st. paul. at first we thought mr. banacia was not going to come but he did. he tells the best jokes besides mr. marcelo.
it was our first day for finals period.
orientation for volleyball. it made me remember my high school days when i used to hide from our PE teacher because she wanted me to serve the ball. LoL. i love volleyball... but i dont think it loves me back. thats why im scared to try it.
i almost slept listening to his lecture. he was discussing about the different officials of volleyball. my mind was flying. i was thinking of something different.
i wondered if my friend hates me because of the wallet issue yesterday. i dont know. she was cold when i went to say hi... or maybe it was my paranoia again.
i have this habit of making my own problems. i whine over simple things and panic over the most shallow stuff. so i used the benefit of the doubt and chose what i wanted to believe. my friend doesnt hate me. there is no reason to hate me. :)
our pe teacher dismissed us early. i ate with mae, val, tin and abby at oi hong kong style noodles. yummy!
as usual we (with mae) rode the bus on the way home. we saw deneb! we missed him so much. i was a little shy around him . i always act that way to long lost friends. i dont know why. i chose to be silent to pick the words to say. lol. its not like its a big deal.
evening came. i was at home. mum and pop came. we had early dinner because we had to go to the mall to buy my contacts. before we left the house, i took my lola's blood pressure then left the aneroid sphygmomanometer lying on the sofa because we were already in a hurry. i didnt keep it. when we got home, i was about to take mum's bp but my bp apparatus wasnt working. of course my parents scolded me. i was upset because i thought i was about to lose something again. i also thought of our nearing duty... thanks to my pop. he was able to fix it.
this happens to me all the time. i always lose something because of my carelessness. maybe God wants me to learn a lesson. its about time to get organized. ill start TOMORROW okay? :)

state of cramming :)

havent blogged for several days. it was hectic. really busy with a lot of things and i still dont know how i found the time.

i was busy especially with

* oral revalida

* midterms

* basic life support training!

our phc oral revalida turned out fine. last tuesday, our group was in classroom 1 where sir F would be going to ask us about our comunity diagnosis thingamagicky. each of us were asked. when it was my turn to answer, our prof asked me to solve a particular problem. i checked the paper for the formula but it wasnt there. i was so nervous and disappointed about that because i wasnt able to study that part. sir F showed a different paper to my groupmates which had a formula on it. maybe they thought it was the same paper though it wasnt. they wondered why i didnt solve the problem and maybe they blamed me a little, or just wondered why maybe. i wasnt sure at that time too because i have a tendency to get all blank when pressure arises. yehey! i checked again my own copy at home and confirmed it to be two different papers. the bottom line is we had 4/10.. but! but... sir F added 10. our final score was 14/20. yeah those who have not managed to answer were sulking (including me).. but it was very inspiring when sir F consoled us and said, " i was once an idiot in front of my professors too."

exams were okay. i think i managed to pass them.

world lit : sir magmanlac asked us to write a joke. its a 3-point-score joke. i told a really corny one. here it goes.

nanay: anak, bakit simo inuubos yang pagkain mo?

anak: ehh busog na ako eh!

nanay: dimo ba alam marami nagugutom ngayong mga bata?

anak: and so.....? mabubusog ba sila pag kinain ko toh? mama naman think!!

harhar. okay that really sucked i know ;)

nutrition: i read the book for three times but when the exam came, i didnt find it easy. lol. was it because of staying up late?

physics: the lecture test was easy but i seemed to forget a lot of things haha! the lab part was the EASIEST but i was too pressured that i lost count of the pages of the paper! he was asking us something about it(orapa).

after physics exam, we went to tbear's house for our study-kuno something. we ended up watching... ******* and ****** hahahah just guess.

i was so clumsy i spilled soup on tricia and spilled orange juice. lol. i deserved to wash the dishes hehehe.

health eco and STS: i didnt sleep the whole night for these. its the last test and i was reallyy tired. i didnt learn anything thats why i was so desperate and i... we... the majority of the class... we...

ahem!

then we went to pasig city for our shooting for lit project. :) it was fun. i slept in abby's house for a few hours. then dressed up like canto boys and everybody was staring (especially at val and kris for they even had charcoaled-look faces out of black eyeshadow).

sunday. bls training.

yehey we all passed! we are certified first aiders after doing cprs and rescue breathings to several dolls hehehe ;)

we ate at mcdo for lunch then i suddenly lost my wallet. i felt like crying. i went back again to the resto but they said they havent seen anything. i even told them about my "grief". 250 is still 250! :(( i even texted my brother fiel but he said nothing good but awwwwww. hahahah. then... in the car, i told my mom about it then i suddenly looked at my bag and voila! my wallet was there. i swear i checked my bag. i swear it was with me in mcdo. hmmmmmmm?? suspisous ehh? but its funny okay? i laughed hard when i found it. i learned to take care of my stuff.

after that, i went to the movies with my family.

tiring and fun :)

thats all.. :)

busy.

too busy to post. please do pray for me! i have to pass huhuhu. btw gotta review ciao! :)

BUSY.

Let's start. We didnt have our STS prof for today, Miss Wilma de Pano. Miss Dacanay was expected to replace her but she didnt arrive. I hated it because I wasnt able to have much sleep last night and had to wake up early to get to STS on time only to find out we dont have a teacher. Time is wasted. Especially sleep. :( I just hung out with friends in the classroom, reviewed a little for our next class then went with Mhai to Mcdo. We chatted there about her "still" broken heart (noticed she has not yet fully moved on) and returned to the classroom for Health Eco.

We were about to have a quiz and I was nervous as usual. Scores came out. My last minute cramming has actually worked. I got 18/20. Yahoo. During lecture, not a lot of students were very attentive to Miss Hanagap, including me. Its very boring. It sucks. It works faster than a sleeping pill. Some were using their laptops while classes were going on. Some were chatting and texting (me). Okay I know its bad but... zzzzzZZz...

After class, Nicole, Tricia, Aya, Me and Mhai went to Sbarro for lunch. Hmm.. Zitti! Super love it! Then we went to a studio to have our pictures taken. I liked the pictures but in one photo, I messed up a little because it was supposed to be serious but I looked more like "weird" or wacky".

Then we returned to school for group work.

Community Diagnosis Time. They were all busy. I felt intimidated because I felt like I had no use. Lol. I hated myself for not knowing whats going on. I dont know if its because of lack of sleep or what. Totally felt out of place. I wish I could help but it felt like nobody needed it. I was being paranoid again as usual... so I went with Elmer and Tricia in making the project names to somehow compensate. I also volunteered to make the summary with Celina and Tricia. So stressed out. *Its 1am. Still coant sleep!(right now)*

Hmm... after that we went to get pictures and then my dad fetched me up. We hung out at Starbucks then went straight home. I was in a bad mood and was a bit temperamental. I just wish my paranoia would go. To anyone whod read this, shhh...

Still feeling worthless.

A Day's Trouble

Morning

Last night, I planned to wake up 8 am this morning to study for our midterm exams. When I woke up, I decided to eat my breakfast and take a bath first before doing so. It was 8.45 am already when I got finished... but then I realized my pens were lost. My Fossil watch which my Ninang Ray gave me was also lost... and a few months ago, I lost 2 jackets, a bottle of perfume and several combs. I was so upset to lose something again. I actually cried and hated myself. I prayed. I was supposed to start reviewing by 9 am but I lost track of time looking for my stuff and being so down. I searched everywhere but I failed. My favorite pens, a Gtec and a Parker... where are you?!

PHC Class

When I came to school, 2.30 pm, Mhai told me we would be having a quiz. I was really surprised that I quickly jumped to get my notes because I didnt know that we'd be having one. I still had 30 minutes. It was a good thing I got 18/20 on our PHC quiz today. Quite satisfying :)
During lecture time, I had menstrual cramps, headache and dizziness. I even puked (in the comfort room... relax!). It makes me wonder what will happen to me someday because its so hard to deal with it. I really suffered sitting there on my chair in class while Mr. Faustorilla was announcing school work, our upcoming midterms and seminars on two Sundays. It was getting in my nerves!
After throwing up outside, some friends asked me if I was okay. I dont know what effect it had on me but their concern was quite comforting. I felt better.

What a day, right? Whew.

Searching for the Positive

I'm not really so thrilled about going back to school. Who is?! When I woke up this morning (well... 11.30 am is still morning!!), sudden flashes of memory entered my head. I remembered staying up late for exams and thought that only if I could, I'd beg professors for more time to sleep. I hugged my pillows and realized how days could pass by so swiftly especially when you enjoy them... but I didn't have the choice. I had to get up and fight the negative thoughts. That is my New Year's Resolution after all.

Our class was 3pm, PE. I saw my classmates and they were all still the same old them. What was I expecting? We only got to part for a few weeks. Others had new hairstyles. I missed them... but I missed my bed more hehe.

I was still getting a hangover from parties and guilt-free sleep. We had to talk about schoolwork again because me and my groupmates, Val and Mae, are the next reporters for SciTech. Next week, we will be having our midterm exams. Can you spell STRESS? I simply wanted to go back home. I wanted to rewind the days.

When will I ever love school? Tell me.